The older I get, the more I realize that there are very few people and things I can change, so I might as well be kinder to myself. After all, each day I live is one less day. I only hope that in the last few minutes before I die, I can confidently tell myself, oh... Xi, you've lived a worthwhile life. Maybe I'll still drink alcohol, and after drinking, just sleep for the last time, and never wake up again. Maybe... it's so romantic, yet so sad, so lonely, isn't it? So every time I think of these things, I feel that fame, power, and money don't matter anymore.