After being here for almost 2 full cycles I finally understand why many 2nd cyclers don't make that much money

The first cycle you are blissful with ignorance and incredibly risk on. You can make a shit ton of money (and lose it all after).
In the second cycle it is hard to buy and hold, you have a lot of PTSD. It is no surprise given how insane being in crypto is.
There is a job to be done if you're going through this same thing. You have to get rid of that baggage and be one of the first to do it, otherwise it would be early.
The more you hold on to it, the harder it will be to get out of the loop.
I am in the final innings of this unraveling, but there is still work to do