Sigh😮‍💨, every time I get slammed hard

I want to turn grief and anger into appetite and vent it
I love eating, and I guess that’s my only hobby…
Lately it’s been patching up life with scraps, while the crypto market and stock market are burning money like water…
Tonight’s emo comes from trading losses
and from all the little bumps in life too😮‍💨
A while back, I had surgery for a herniated disc
and now, my mother got a tooth pulled that triggered periodontitis + COVID
Tuan Tuan also went through a cold and fever🤒
At this age, with pressure from both the elderly above and the dependents below, the biggest pressure is🙃🙃🙃
At least, full-time trading means I’ve got plenty of time
🉑 but I still can’t take losing like this
🥹🥹🥹
Recently it’s been a double kill—stocks and crypto both hitting me😭😭😭