Can’t sleep. I keep racking my brain over the things I can’t make sense of. I’ve been moving along without stopping. Only after I suddenly paused and reviewed myself did I realize a serious misalignment I’d overlooked. I examined myself: Has my ability to analyze declined? Has my insight declined? No—neither. It’s because I had never truly reflected on myself. I was originally outside the board, yet I walked into the game; “trapped in the chess match without finding a way out” was applied to me perfectly. In fact, the biggest blunder was overestimating the place I held in someone else’s heart. The truth, in the end, comes down to just two words: “worth it.” She isn’t incapable of changing. She avoids and ignores your care—not because she doesn’t want to change, but because you are not the person who can make her change. That’s all. Suddenly it clicked. It’s not that I’d made some enormous wrong turn; it was just that I went through a stretch of misalignment that took a long time to see clearly. It’s time to step out of it—I almost got lost.