Ever since I started using order numbers, I became that terrifying kind of “stupid.” Before I used order numbers, I would place orders with 8–10 points every day, and I was getting dozens of consecutive winning streaks every day. In just 2 days, using order numbers, I went from 80,000 u to 220,000 u—then it made me feel like I was flying.

But once I started placing orders, I became very aggressive. I thought it didn’t matter. After all, I was making money. That led to me being pinned down and getting brutally wiped out—my principal suffering drawdown, up and down, constant fluctuations.

Recently, my body also really hasn’t been feeling well, and my emotions have been heavier than usual too. There are also some things going on at home that contributed to it. But none of this is a reason. If I lose, then I lose. I won’t look for any excuses. If I can’t even restrain myself over these little things, then how could I survive in this market?

Only by admitting my own failure can I set foot on the journey of turning the tables and turning things around against the odds. I’m really glad he came not too late. If I had truly earned a lot, then it wouldn’t be because my principal was drawing down. What the “earnings” would be replaced with would definitely be liquidation.

Tomorrow I’m moving, changing to a new place, and there won’t be anyone around me—so I won’t be affected by outside influences. Starting next Monday, I’m going to become self-disciplined. I’ll stream live every day on time, at the proper time. For a month, if I can’t get 1–2x, then from then on I won’t touch gold ever again. This post serves as my proof and will be permanently pinned.