I find that what I can't handle the most is not how much I've lost, but the floating loss that hasn't been fully realized yet, constantly refreshing in my mind, like a radio stuck on a noise channel, getting more and more annoying the longer I listen. Conversely, floating gains are very Zen: even when I make money, I don't dare to believe it, afraid that I’ll wake up and be brought back to reality... Honestly, it's the loss aversion that’s too real; the uncertainty of the loss is more tormenting than the loss itself.

Recently, seeing everyone complain about miner/validator income and MEV causing unfair ordering, I also find myself involuntarily empathizing: clearly I just made a transaction, but it feels like I’m wrestling with a bunch of “cut-in-line experts,” the more I think about it, the harder it is to sleep. Let’s not dwell on it; I’ll first revoke a few old authorizations in my wallet, then put my phone away, and go to sleep.