There's something that's been sitting with me for a while now. Janice McAfee, widow of the infamous John McAfee, is still in Spain trying to piece together what actually happened to her husband. More than two years after his death in a Barcelona prison, she's doing odd jobs just to survive. No money. No answers. No closure.

Most people have moved on by now. The Catalan court ruled it suicide back in 2023, case closed. But Janice? She can't move on because she still doesn't know what really happened. She's been trying to get the autopsy released, but Spanish authorities won't budge. An independent autopsy could give her answers, but it costs 30,000 euros—money she doesn't have.

I keep thinking about what she said in an interview: for more than two years, I've not only had to deal with the tragedy of Johns death, but its so hard to move on because the authorities refuse to release the autopsy. I have tried and tried, but they will not let me see it. She just wants to see his body and know what really happened. That's not too much to ask, right?

Here's the wild part about John McAfee's net worth situation. The guy was worth over 100 million after he cashed out from his antivirus company back in 1994. By the time he died, Celebrity Net Worth estimated his fortune had shrunk to around 4 million. He claimed in 2019 he had nothing and couldn't pay a 25-million-dollar judgment from a wrongful death lawsuit. Then authorities arrested him on tax evasion charges, claiming he and his team made 11 million promoting cryptocurrencies. From prison, he told his million Twitter followers: I have nothing. But I regret nothing.

So what happened to all that money? According to Janice, there's no will, no estate. Because of the U.S. judgments against him, it's basically impossible for any financial legacy to reach her. There are stories about secret caches and documents, but John deliberately kept her in the dark to keep her safe. Smart move, maybe, but it left her with nothing.

What really gets to me is the medical side of this. Janice has serious questions about what happened when they found John in his cell. The prison report says he was still alive when they discovered him—faint pulse, but breathing. Yet when they found him with a ligature around his neck, the medical staff apparently tried CPR without removing it first. Janice actually went to school for nursing assistance, and she knows that's not how it works. The first thing you do is clear the airways. You remove the obstruction. She's seen the prison video. It didn't happen that way.

I don't know if it was negligence or stupidity, she said. It just feels sinister.

But here's what's eating at her most: she and John talked every single day after he was imprisoned. Every. Single. Day. She doesn't believe he would have ended things that way without telling her. She doesn't know how he got strung up, doesn't know if it was rope or shoelace, doesn't know why they held onto his body for two years. The uncertainty is the killer.

John had been pretty paranoid about his safety, which makes sense given his history. He'd told Janice that authorities were after him, not her. He was public about possessing 31 terabytes of incriminating data on government corruption, but he never shared it with her. She has no idea where it is or if it even exists. He was protecting her by keeping her in the dark.

After his death, Janice was terrified. She thought she might become a target. But now? She says she feels relatively safe. She has nothing to hide, and she doesn't even know how he really died, so what would she be a target for?

There's also this Netflix documentary, Running with the Devil: The Wild World of John McAfee, that came out last year. Janice thinks it missed the point entirely. It portrayed them as fugitives, but that's not the real story. The filmmakers centered themselves instead of focusing on why John felt pushed to live that way or why she stayed with him. It was sensationalism over substance.

What Janice wants now is simple: she wants the independent autopsy. She wants to know what her husband's body says. She wants to fulfill his wish to be cremated. She wants to remember him properly. She wants to move on.

Two years ago she had the money for the autopsy. A year ago she still had it. Now she doesn't. She's surviving on small jobs, just trying to get by. She's not looking for justice—she knows there's no such thing anymore. She just wants answers and the chance to say goodbye to her husband the right way.

Everybody deserves a chance to move on. Janice McAfee deserves that more than most.