Recently, I've been earning testnet points again. It was pretty easy at first as practice, but then a bunch of people started calculating "expectations," and my mindset started to shift... Honestly, once I start thinking "what if there's a real airdrop," I can't stop myself.

Now I've set a stop-loss for myself: a fixed amount of time each day, and if I go over that, I close the webpage; if I need to set up a new wallet, change environments, or click through dozens of signatures, I’ll stop for the night and do it the next day if I still want to. Also, if I have to chase after a tutorial and click around, or constantly change parameters, I consider that not practice but work.

Additionally, the on-chain data tools and tagging systems have recently been criticized for being laggy or misleading, so I don’t fully trust the idea that "you belong to a certain address category and therefore must have a share." It feels too easy to deceive myself.

What I fear missing the most isn’t actually opportunities, but rather giving all my life time to the expectations of "what might happen."