I only realized after I started recording that floating losses are more frustrating than floating gains. When making a profit, my mind defaults to "This is what I deserve," but when there's a drawdown, I start thinking about whether I should cut it back; when in loss, it's even more absurd—I've not sold yet, but I've already mentally sentenced myself, checking the market before bed like inspecting a wound, the more I look, the more it hurts. Honestly, it's not about having more or less money, but that feeling of shame—"Did I judge wrong again?"

Recently, everyone has been complaining about miners/validators eating too much, MEV front-running, unfair ordering, and I resonate with that: when you're floating profits, you think the market is quite efficient; when floating losses, you start doubting if someone "cut in line" ahead of you, and the more you think about it, the angrier you get. Anyway, I now honestly record the reasons for each trade and my emotions at the time, so that next time I wake up scared again, I can look back and see: is the market messing with me, or am I just being reckless? That's all for now.