"Debt of 1 Million Self-Help Diary"

These past two days I've thought a lot
Mostly insomnia
I keep sleeping around 6 or 7 in the morning
Constantly flipping through the tweets I wrote before
Trying to regain that initial state
That day, Ri Guan said a sentence
As long as you enter this circle
It's very hard to leave
I've thought about this sentence repeatedly for a long time
It's indeed hard to accept
And I really don't want to just walk away
When I first wrote this diary