Today, August 26, 2025, marks my 429th week in the crypto world, with a total loss of 429*1400=600600 yuan.

To be honest, in this market, if an ordinary person can make 10,000U, which is about 70,000 yuan, it's like thanking the heavens and the earth—several of my friends around me are losing money, some losing it inexplicably, and some doubting if there's something wrong with their brains. I used to be stubborn, saying I didn’t believe in this evil, but what happened? I ended up being the one who lost the most, while others at least have some pattern to their losses; mine just keeps getting worse, it’s unbelievable.

The first time I could stop was around March 12, 2020. I had just started playing with this stuff, like a newbie. By chance, I shorted and managed to recover my capital, breaking even. At that time, I thought it was great to take profits and run. But fate doesn’t work the way you want it to, there’s no such thing as a regret pill. Later, the market surged, and my money disappeared like flowing water. By early April 2020, I lost 40,000; in the next 9 months, I lost 5,000 each month, totaling 45,000—adding up to 85,000, just like that, it was gone. It hurts to think about it.

The second time I could stop was in October 2022, when I recovered 28,000 and had 67,000 on hand. According to the calculations at that time, I had previously lost 85,000 plus the 60,000 I lost throughout 2021, and adding 5,000 each month for the 9 months in between, that totals 190,000. So when I calculate it this way, I actually only lost 99,000, and if I had walked away then, it wouldn't have been too tragic. But there are never that many "ifs"; it's like during an exam when you clearly know how to do something but only remember how once you submit the paper. At that time, I was working at Foxconn, and I don't know what I was thinking, I quit my job, and then it felt like I was possessed, losing money continuously until I only had 24,000 left in my account. Sigh.

The third time I could stop was in January 2024, at that time I had 160,000 plus 24,000, a total of 184,000. If we calculate the total, from 2020 to 2024, I lost a total of 265,000, and if I were to withdraw at that time, I would only be losing 81,000, which is not bad. But where in the world are there so many "what ifs"? I didn’t catch it. Later, from 2024 to 2025, not only did I lose all my money, but I also encountered some unscrupulous people, which only added to my troubles, it was extremely unlucky.

The fourth withdrawal is on August 19, 2025. At that time, I had 55,000 yuan in my pocket, but now I only have 35,000 yuan.
sigh

It's a lie to say that it doesn't hurt; sometimes it really feels unbearable, and I even feel hopeless. But I tell myself that as long as I'm alive, there's hope. Otherwise, what can I do? Right now, I just want to focus on my own things and not worry about others. Sigh, let's just live well for now; as long as I'm alive, there will always be opportunities to improve.