Today I made a decision.

Withdrew the last 5500U from my account.
No more futures trading.
This past week, I hit the lowest point in my life.
On June 1st, I opened a heavy long position on BTC around 73300, then stopped out and lost over 10,000U in one go.
After that, I kept thinking about making it back.
But the more I traded, the more I lost.
My account shrank all the way down to 1700U.
The scariest thing is not losing money.
It's that I started to believe:
"As long as I make it back on the next trade, all problems will disappear."
But that's not how it works.
The debt is still there.
The marital issues are still there.
The anxiety and insomnia are still there.
A few days ago, I finally confessed all the debt to my wife.
A total of over 180k.
At that moment, I realized.
What truly breaks a person is not the loss.
But hiding, avoiding, and wishful thinking.
I am an ordinary person.
25 years old.
Have a job.
Have a family.
And have made many mistakes.
Starting today, I plan to document my self-rescue process.