People ultimately become what they want to be.

Only when you have money can you afford to have social anxiety.
Back then, I also posted hundreds of resumes on job sites in a single day.
I would go to interviews at several companies in one day.
Seeing who would take me in.
Except for obvious scam companies, I would go to work for anyone who took me in.
Why didn't I pick and choose? Because every time I spent all my money and maxed out my credit cards before I was forced to look for a job.
My sense of self-worth was almost zero.
I felt like I knew nothing.
The skills I did have couldn't make money.
Even now, I still think the most suitable jobs for me are sanitation workers and security guards.
But I won't be submitting resumes anymore, won't go to work, and certainly won't become a sanitation worker or security guard.
I have money now, I'm lying flat, and I play on my computer every day.
I'm living the life I want, becoming what I want to be.
I've developed social anxiety, but maybe I've always had it—I just never had the chance to be socially anxious; to survive, I had to overcome it.
Only when you have money can you afford to have social anxiety.