I’ve found that the human brain is really good at putting on a show: when I’m up on an unrealized basis, I act like I didn’t see it, and I can still scroll a couple of times before bed. But the moment I’m down on an unrealized basis—even if it’s only a little—my mind immediately starts writing horror stories, replaying thoughts like “Should I cut?” “What if tomorrow it spikes straight against me…” And the more I think, the more alert I get. To put it plainly, the moment I’m losing feels like someone has stolen something from me; even though I haven’t actually sold yet, my mood has already cracked.

Recently, with the fee rates going to extremes, the group has been arguing again about whether it’s a reversal or just continuing to pump and inflate. I stare at those numbers and can’t sleep—it's not because I’m afraid of missing out; it’s because I’m afraid of being “proven wrong.” Later, I learned to be smarter: take smaller positions, don’t watch the screen right before bed, and if I really need to make a move, write down a reason—otherwise, I’d be driving purely on emotions.

What I learned isn’t a trading technique. I’m not really trading crypto; I’m just wrestling my own “fear of losing.”