I don't know why, but I feel really off this weekend. Everything feels meaningless, and it feels like progressing little by little, like ants climbing a tree, is just too slow. I wanted to go all-in, but ultimately didn't act on it. “Going all-in means certain death” seems to be carved into my bones and has become instinctive. Many of the trades I opened this weekend were made blindly based on feelings, purely to seek some sense of existence. Because of this, I stumbled again in binary options. I have to constantly warn myself not to touch binary options; the immediacy of this thing has a huge impact on the brain's prefrontal cortex and amygdala. After experiencing this kind of instant feedback, it becomes very difficult for the brain to calm down and wait patiently for a long time. This has a huge impact on both trading and life. Over time, you can no longer calm down and focus on doing anything for a long time. I felt especially empty on Sunday, and could only barely find some sense and experience of existence through sex. This is fatal. In the future, when my state is off, I must not force things. I should uninstall the apps and isolate myself if necessary, but I must first close all the Category 2 trades with one click, then calm down and adjust myself: go to bed early and get up early, eat healthily, and exercise more to reshape the brain's thinking and reward mechanisms. I failed to hold yesterday's $ZEC because I was in a bad state, didn't dare to hold it for fear of losses, and ran after taking a tiny profit. Next time this happens, if I want to open a trade, I can only use 5x leverage at most, while keeping the initial position size small, so that I can hold it. Today, while selling a graphics card on Xianyu, I also ran into an idiot who wanted to buy a 6950xt with a warranty. Absolutely unbelievable. Arguing with him wasted my time and drained my energy. When I'm in a bad state, I must force myself to go running or work out. Don't randomly open trades or operate blindly—blind operations mean certain death! If there are no suitable targets to trade at the start of the new week, I should take a break for a while and start again once my state has recovered. Blind operations mean certain death! I must get myself into the right state. There will always be opportunities, so I must always be ready to seize them!