Bro, it's okay to fool others, but don't fool yourself into it

Honestly, I really did two years of harvesting leeks before, that was when I was so broke I had no choice, could only deceive, rely on packaging personas, deceive, act, and all using alt accounts, completely different from my real identity, and I didn't make that much money either, if performance was poor, I’d still get punished
Later I felt it was pointless, still hoping for more authenticity, being true to myself is more comfortable, I can act as others, but I can't act as myself, living actually has no real meaning