Who among you is unluckier than me?

I became aware of the concept of stocks, investment, subscriptions, and trading, but I didn't know how to open an investment and trading account, and I was still in my first year at university. The internet in Saudi Arabia in 2001 was scarce and expensive, at 3 riyals per hour. I used to open many pages, and when they finished loading, I would close the internet. Hahaha. I read and read like a donkey carrying books. The point is, I struggled to find out that Samba Bank, which merged with the American bank at the time, was the best bank in providing online trading services. However, I faced an obstacle at the beginning of the road. I needed 50,000 riyals to open a portfolio, but I couldn't find anyone to lend me this amount. I wished I hadn't gotten addicted to this field and the loss after opening the account. I was one of the latecomers who trained themselves and dreamed of wealth, entering the Saudi stock market during its boom. I couldn't put money without it bouncing. Any stock I chose, I would close my eyes and it would soar. I would stay up late, analyzing and believing in myself, interpreting this stock and that stock, the indicators of the fools. This one's signal is like this, and this is resistance, and this is support, and this is a wave, and these are candles, and the volume indicators, and I, the fool, praying, believing that they would give me the future and what's to come. I didn't know that it's like analyzing matches. If the result is over, it's analyzed in light of its result, indicators made to justify something that happened. And that's it. An indicator tells you, 'I'm here,' but then it stops. Maybe I can do this or that, and maybe I'm sleeping at that time and don't see anything. Usually, these indicators are rising, like the loyal friend, all supporting you until you trust them. And after the decline, you don't find an indicator standing with you. Every indicator tells you, 'I have no work; go back to the chart.' I would tell you, 'We'll rise,' and I would lift you, and while I lift you, I would tell you, 'I'm telling you, we might not rise.' And if I went back to the chart, I would find the indicators, like honored guests, present in the probabilities. And if I zoomed out a bit, I would find all the stocks rising, with different prices, fields, and trading methods, and that the indicators are present in all the charts, like parasitic organisms, all the same.